Dark Water

by Nolan Kurtz

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Written, recorded, & produced in Davis, CA & Tacoma, WA. September 2014-June 2016
Cover photo: Underwater | Waikiki, Honolulu, HI | June '14
Typography & composition by Chris Vander Haak.
Chinese text by Eugenia Su-Brown, Mable Auyeung, & Cecilia Yao.
Mastered by James Nagel | Davis, CA.

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released July 22, 2016

Violins on "Moonlight" by Marshall Frimoth.
Additional vocals on "Windfall" by Ming Ming Su-Brown.
"Into The Stars" | All vocals recorded and produced by James Nagel. Additional vocals by Josh Anway & Emily Mazzariello. Additional production by Wellhead & stanleymarket.
"FYM" | Organ by Harrison Salton. Additional production by stanleymarket.

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Track Name: Mantra (feat. CAARGO)
The mirror will lie
Your mind will deny
Beauty deep inside of you

Of the light I have seen
Of the grace that we’re all here
I’m finding the energy to return it all to the earth
Give me the energy to love myself enough to love the world

Reach into your soul
Bring it all to the light
Free your secrets
Cause they pull you to hell
Reach into your soul
Go let it out
Keep your mantra
Yeah

Keep your mantra
Reach into your soul
Yeah
Reach into your soul
Yeah
Track Name: Moonlight
Deep inside
There’s a place where I go to hide like a vampire
To escape the light
I used to chase the light
It’s crazy how the time flies
And now I’m looking out
There’s a hand that I always hold open

Looking for you through my window
Cast your magical light
Aging slowly
Feel my body slipping out of my hand
Take me higher cause I am too tired
Holding onto your light
Moonlight

Don’t leave me
Don’t leave me

Hellbent hellbent for another
Long night, deep sleep like I wanted
To see the light
I want to see the light
Send a little angel
Send a little angel
Yeah
To see the light
I want to see the light

Do you even hear a word?
I’m dying in the middle

Aging slowly
Feel my body slipping out of my hand
Take me higher cause I am too tired
Holding onto your light
Moonlight
Moonlight
Moonlight
Track Name: Zero
Why play the game of joy illusion
To fake it just to never make it?
Resist it
Don’t count back to zero
Progression works
If we bring it all to light

Oceans break and the sun returns
All creation is reborn
How long will I be waiting till my pain is dead?
Cause I believe that’s it’s born again as strength

Retrace the path back to the start
Where did it all begin and why?
Resist it
Don’t count back to zero
The underworld can spit you out alive

Oceans break and the sun returns
All creation is reborn
How long will I be waiting till my pain is dead?
Cause I believe that it’s born again as strength

Take
Take it from me
Track Name: Root (Prod. Wellhead)
Lookin’ for a way to root in the ground
But every time I get up something knocks me down
Everyone says stay optimistic
But everyone’s so damn numb to pain

Oh I don’t want to be alone
Yeah
Oh but I don’t want to be around
Yeah
Oh those who never understand
Yeah

We have turned our joy into a commodity
And it’s no wonder that I’m so concerned with how to stay
Sane before another day
And looking for the perfect friend

Can you relate?
Oh I don’t want to be alone
Yeah
Oh but I don’t want to be around
Yeah
Oh those who never understand
Yeah

Lookin’ for a way to root in the ground
But every time I get up something knocks me down
Oh
Lookin’ for a way to root in the ground
But every time I get up something knocks me down
Track Name: Nightlurk (feat. fiction)
Standing here in the street
Do you see me?
I see you
Your spirit is bright I hide in the dark

Do you want to nightlurk with me?
Somebody?
Will somebody come be awake?
Been looking for love
Someone to hold in the dark
But in the moment
I'm trying to be alright alone
But I'ma always look for you
And wave goodbye to the empty heart
That enslaves me

I haven't prayed in so long
For the moment babe, babe, babe
I'ma nightlurk and send a prayer

fiction:
Last call: one four seven on the clock
Fuck it
One more evan on the rocks
I'm antsy and I can't go home but I can't stay
Reckon i should walk
Could be space for reflection
But wasted, I waste it on base self-correction
Ace at projection who fears introductions
Been years since my nearest kiss that meant something

See my type is like Noël Wells
But my mind always shifts with the lunar
Tides recede, and so will she
So I don't care 'bout all this if she gets with my humor
All due respect to my late introspection
I wish it was shared, but I'm scared of rejection
If you can get down with all the above
Let's rebrand insomnia as falling in love

Do you want to nightlurk with me?
Somebody?
Will somebody come be awake?
Wave goodbye to the empty heart
To hold in the dark
For so long
Yeah
Track Name: Windfall (feat. Jen Bjerke)
A reason to be alive in this world
To smile in the midst of our fleeting lives
To dance in pouring rain
To celebrate the earth
Is the love I have for you

You make me believe in a loving creator
That a better way is to be selfless
We pray the spirit comes down
But it’s inside us
I feel it when the wind blows
And looking at you
We pray the spirit comes down
But it’s inside us
I feel it when the wind blows
And looking at you

A reason to sing out to you
A reason to reach out in all I do
Now I face the fear and fight
Letting go the tears inside
You hold me close in the warmth of truth

You make me believe in a loving creator
That a better way is to be selfless
We pray the spirit comes down
But it’s inside us
I feel it when the wind blows
And looking at you
We pray the spirit comes down
But it’s inside us
I feel it when the wind blows
And looking at you
Track Name: Spread Luv (Prod. stanleymarket)
Am I part of something greater?
Is there anyone that listens?
I don't believe in karma
Tell me what's so fair about our suffering
I'm looking to try and see the point

But when you reach for the sky
And look up ahead
You see a reason to trust and
Face all your ghosts
Surrender the "why"
Give all you can to spread love

Spread love
Spread love
With all your heart spread love
Spread love
There's nothing to defend

Are we part of something greater?
Is there anyone that listens?
How can we pretend to know why we bleed?
In the side and in the soul yeah
The only certitude is mystery

But when you reach for the sky
And look up ahead
You see a reason to trust and
Face all your ghosts
Surrender the "why"
Give all you can to spread love

Reach for the sky
And look up ahead
You see a reason to trust and
Face all your ghosts
Surrender the "why"
Give all you can to spread love

Spread love
Spread love
With all your heart spread love
Spread love
There's nothing to defend

Spread love

Reach for the sky
And look up ahead
You see a reason to trust and
Face all your ghosts
Surrender the "why"
Give all you can to spread love
Track Name: Into The Stars
I am a weary heart with brittle bones walking with careful steps
The frailness we share is all around
I’m worrying about how to hold on in the world
But I am finding out that giving you control is a way to go on
In the story of the universe we find our role in time

Our tired eyes will start to see
The hope of life that comes and sets us free
Our hurting hands will be made whole
You’ll find the lost and bring them home
So let’s leave fear and take to joy
Past our bones, into the stars

I am a beating heart with able hands walking with hopeful steps
I belong to you, the God of love
You give us vision to look beyond decay
When we see your life is breaking in we begin to know
You resurrect our broken souls and give them freedom to live

Our tired eyes will start to see
The hope of life that comes and sets us free
Our hurting hands will be made whole
You’ll find the lost and bring them home
So let’s leave fear and take to joy
Past our bones, into the stars

God of righteousness create a space in me
God of righteousness create a space in me

Our tired eyes will start to see
The hope of life that comes and sets us free
Our hurting hands will be made whole
You’ll find the lost and bring them home
So let’s leave fear and take to joy
Past our bones, into the stars
Track Name: Vision
They all looked past me
I don't know if they saw me
They all got pretty
What ever came to me?
Who is now speaking?
I'm a fool to keep on listening
To be honest I need to look at you

Every day I wake up alive
I see the world
And I kind of want to hide in
It's like a wave is crashing on me
I want to breathe again
It's been a long time

The scars of my shattered soul
Will always keep bringing me back
To that shit unless I let myself heal

I can barely hear you
I got another vision
Every time you move in
I will not avoid ya
I can barely hear you
I got another vision
I got another vision

I'm getting real tired
Of hallow lies that leave us empty
They sell them all around us
I don't buy it anymore now
Cause I know I'm broken
All my money won't fix it
When I say it I find
I'm not alone

Every day I wake up alive
I see the world
And I kind of want to hide in
It's like a wave is crashing on me
I want to breathe again
It's been a long time

The scars of my shattered soul
Will always keep bringing me back
To that shit unless I let myself heal

I can barely hear you
I got another vision
Every time you move in
I will not avoid ya
I can barely hear you
I got another vision
I got another vision
I got another vision
Track Name: FYM
Free your mind like a falling motion

If you got a burning desire to see the world alright
You gotta realize the changing has got to start within
Don’t fuck with pointing the finger at people just like you
To end the violence, oppression, and systematic fear
Start with your mind

Free your mind like a falling motion
Free your mind like a falling motion
Track Name: Dark Water
Ever wonder how we got this far on a little pale blue dot?
Life is such a miracle, but look at how we kill the gift
Pretend we know exactly why we’re here and then we’re not
Kill the one’s who disagree
But it is all or one

Ever think you miss the point when the reaper comes to play?
Do you ever lay awake and say, "Maybe there is no God?"
Did you meet divinity when you fell on the ground
If there is one God embrace the sacred secular

I’ve tried to be who they are
Robotically worshipping
But they are so close-minded
Are they afraid of dark water?

Won’t you show me what is real?
I’m not afraid to see the truth
Even if I have to let it go
And begin to swim in dark water

Open up your eyes to see
Open up your eyes to see